For over 10 years now I have consistently asked the various doctors I have at the Veterans Hospital; "are you sure it's not my thyroid"? For the last 3 months I've been so exhausted. I thought maybe my Chronic Fatigue or my Fibromyalgia was coming back full force. But no, it finally happened. My thyroid numbers finally went high enough to start me on a thyroid pill called Levothyroixine. I have hypothyroid. Since starting on it a few weeks ago, things are happening I'm not used to.
My joints don't seem to ache much anymore, I'm not hungry all the time, my sinuses seem clearer, even my mind fog seems clearer, the numbness and tingling I have in my legs, feet, arms and hands seem to have gotten much better, a little thing called a sex drive is showing back up, but mostly, I seem to be having more energy. As a matter of fact, not that it's back to normal energy, but more than I usually have; that I've been so long without it, I can't remember what to do with it. I find myself pacing through the house trying to remember what I used to do over 21 years ago before getting ill. This week, I decided to paint my kitchen.
I don't want to get my hopes up but I'm wondering if all the health issues I've dealt with since I was young could have possibly been this hypothyroid. From what I've read on it, it can show up even as a child, but not have any effects until you are older. I've constantly questioned for 21 years now, do I really have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia? Is this what God has planned for me? Because I gotta say I haven't been thrilled with the outcome. Constantly tired, missing out of a lot of life, sick all the time and finally not able to work for the last 3 years. Yep, I don't want to get my hopes up, but what will happen if after all this, it's simply my thyroid? Could it be possible to actually start exercising again and go back to work?? This would be a prayer answered.
I've met others who have felt much better after getting their thyroid pills. Their health has gone back to normal except for one of the terrible side effects which is freezing hands. My hands are freezing cold all the time now. Before I started these pills, my hands would sometimes get so warm, my dog wouldn't let me rest them on him. I do feel different. Not sure how to describe it. I just know it's nice to have some energy. Without energy, your whole life suffers. You can't go out with your friends all the time, play with your kids, go to stores when you need to, go back to college and the list goes on.
Mostly, it makes you feel guilty for not being able to keep a promise. Not just to others but mostly to yourself. A simple promise like telling a friend you will meet them for dinner and then your body fails you. I've tried several times to explain to people what it is like to be a prisoner in your body and no matter how much will power you think you have, your body still can control you and your mind in the end.
I'm trying not to get my hopes up that I might be so normal I could finish college at age 51!! Go back to work and earn my own spending money!! I'm trying not to get my hopes up; but of course, I already have.
My joints don't seem to ache much anymore, I'm not hungry all the time, my sinuses seem clearer, even my mind fog seems clearer, the numbness and tingling I have in my legs, feet, arms and hands seem to have gotten much better, a little thing called a sex drive is showing back up, but mostly, I seem to be having more energy. As a matter of fact, not that it's back to normal energy, but more than I usually have; that I've been so long without it, I can't remember what to do with it. I find myself pacing through the house trying to remember what I used to do over 21 years ago before getting ill. This week, I decided to paint my kitchen.
I don't want to get my hopes up but I'm wondering if all the health issues I've dealt with since I was young could have possibly been this hypothyroid. From what I've read on it, it can show up even as a child, but not have any effects until you are older. I've constantly questioned for 21 years now, do I really have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia? Is this what God has planned for me? Because I gotta say I haven't been thrilled with the outcome. Constantly tired, missing out of a lot of life, sick all the time and finally not able to work for the last 3 years. Yep, I don't want to get my hopes up, but what will happen if after all this, it's simply my thyroid? Could it be possible to actually start exercising again and go back to work?? This would be a prayer answered.
I've met others who have felt much better after getting their thyroid pills. Their health has gone back to normal except for one of the terrible side effects which is freezing hands. My hands are freezing cold all the time now. Before I started these pills, my hands would sometimes get so warm, my dog wouldn't let me rest them on him. I do feel different. Not sure how to describe it. I just know it's nice to have some energy. Without energy, your whole life suffers. You can't go out with your friends all the time, play with your kids, go to stores when you need to, go back to college and the list goes on.
Mostly, it makes you feel guilty for not being able to keep a promise. Not just to others but mostly to yourself. A simple promise like telling a friend you will meet them for dinner and then your body fails you. I've tried several times to explain to people what it is like to be a prisoner in your body and no matter how much will power you think you have, your body still can control you and your mind in the end.
I'm trying not to get my hopes up that I might be so normal I could finish college at age 51!! Go back to work and earn my own spending money!! I'm trying not to get my hopes up; but of course, I already have.
Hope things are on the up and up for you :)
ReplyDeleteWow - well done & I've gotten my hopes up for you!!
ReplyDeleteHi, I am sending a prayer your way. I recently had my thyroid out and am dealing with hypothyroidism (ughhh). I also have MS ... so I think we deal with a LOT of the same stuff. Sending an empathic hug across cyberspace. Peace!
ReplyDeleteDiana